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[transmittable]

If you'd like to ask the Transmitter something over the phone, go right ahead! The Transmitter will answer the phone as soon as she's available. Leaving messages is impossible, given how old these phones are, but you should be able to reach her at almost all hours.

Comments are screened for privacy; all Patients are offered confidentiality, didn't you know?

Comments

[transmittable]

Mmmm, not in so many words. Not comfortable like...uh, others- but comfortable enough to carry on a conversation. It's 'cause I know more of what to expect.

Asking me to think hard on you, it helped.

[nachetanya]

[ There's a long pause here. Thinking hard on her... helped.

... She hesitates longer than usual before: ]

... Knowing all that, do you find any part of me admirable?

[ Though her tone is as neutral as ever, it's - well, it's naked in that she would ask it at all that she's hoping for validation. Maybe she really is tired. ]

[transmittable]

[ ... ]

You're devoted to something that will, thought difficult, save many people, in the long run.

I think that's admirable.

[nachetanya]

[ . . . She's touched by that, more than even she wants to admit. She - ]

Thank you.

[transmittable]

You asked. ...But you're welcome.

[nachetanya]

[ She exhales. This mixture is probably good enough now. She... She laughs, and centers herself again ]

Would it be nosy if I asked if you made up with Ryoji? You can be nosy to me in return.

[transmittable]

It would be VERY nosy, in fact, but we did. ...Thanks for talking to him. Even though there was nothing I could do in return, you still- so. You know. Thanks.

[nachetanya]

I said you can be nosy right back!

[ She laughs though, shaking her head ]

I'm glad, though. I would still like something in return, but it was fun to talk more with him. I might see if he wants to host some game this week.

[transmittable]

That sounds like something he'd be good at. Have a game night, make everyone play that...whatever you were making.

[ So she knows a little about that... ]

In terms of being a nosy little...rabbit I guess, how's it going with you and Assimilated?

[nachetanya]

[ She wonders how much the Transmitter can read her intentions with Tsubasa. She smiles a little to herself, nodding to confirm that yes, she thinks the game night sounds nice. ]

Honestly, I was thinking that I would ask her if I could stay the night with her tonight. If I'm asking you to comfort me with validation, that's all the more reason to, probably.

[transmittable]

That sounds like a good idea. Take comfort where you can get it, and I'm sure you'd- like, if it's a choice between me and someone more on your level- someone you spend more time with- that's a better choice.

[nachetanya]

In general, though, I'm beginning to actually fall for her.

[ She says this without much hesitation, but her voice is softer than normal, as if it's a fact she isn't confident in stating. ]

[transmittable]

[ The Transmitter's voice is equally soft, almost lost beneath the feedback. ]

She seems like a wonderful girl, it's not surprising. Hiw does she feel?

[nachetanya]

[ Interesting. The feedback's actually getting a little bothersome, but- ]

I... believe it's not too much of a stretch to say that she's falling for me too. I know for certain she will accept my feelings, but I do worry that there's little that she won't accept, if that makes sense.

ah, typos...

[transmittable]

It does, somewhat...but why don't you explain it?

Hey man I've done a few we're a little even now

[nachetanya]

[ She again wonders... the Transmitter would know more about the inner workings and nature of Tsubasa than even she would, right? and if she can monitor everything, could she deduce Nachetanya's plans too...? all of that goes unsaid, though, instead: ]

She has accepted everything I've done so far. Sometimes with complaint and sometimes with protest, but not once has she refused anything, even when I've been very unreasonable with our "game." I do believe she feels something for me... but how certain can I be that she isn't simply accepting my feelings and allowing for them?

[transmittable]

How can you be sure she's feeling and experiencing and not just...assimilating? Is that it?

[nachetanya]

Yes.

[ She frowns. ]

... I know Tsubasa had a goal, to see the world. I know she is her own person, she has a past and preferences in some department - the look in her eyes when we speak about intellectual things is gorgeous. But when she says she has no dislikes when it comes to people she would be attracted to, or things like that-

It's a worry I believe you can understand why I'd have.

[transmittable]

How can one person not...have a preference, right? How can you know she's being- truthful, with you, or omitting things.

Have you been honest with her?

[nachetanya]

You know the answer to that.

[ She's been as truthful as she feels she can be. Obviously, she's not said that she's the Seventh, or the true nuance of her ambitions. About Dozzu or any of the other things she's done beyond being one of the Six Flowers.

But she's been honest in most else. ]

[transmittable]

I do.

What do you think she'd say if she learned of that?

[nachetanya]

Honestly...

[ She hums, and shifts how she's sitting, letting go of what she was stirring the mixture of lemon and water with to pick up the phone. ]

I think it would be something like "I see, so that's what you want." I don't think that she'd agree with my choices, but she'd probably accept them. She might even be willing to keep them a secret for me. Her ambition isn't particularly strong, from what I can tell.

[transmittable]

And...what do you think about that? What's a lack of ambition mean to you in a person?

[nachetanya]

It means that person hasn't found who they truly are. I... ideally I would want Tsubasa to discover that but for me to still have a place near her.

[transmittable]

It could take time. For a person to discover who they are, that could take...a lot of time.