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yeah.
the more i talk to them, the more i remember my old life and want it back. but the more i talk to them, the more i like them too and don't want to be doing this to them.

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I THINK THAT'S WHY THE OTHERS I KNEW NEVER TALKED TO THEM MUCH. IT'S EASIER IF YOU DON'T. JUST CALL THEM BY TITLE AND TREAT THEM LIKE THEY AREN'T PEOPLE AND EVERYTHING GETS MUCH EASIER.

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i started like that but
i don't know, i'm doing this because i don't want to lose myself. and the more i realized what i was doing, the more i realized acting like that would be losing myself?
and i really liked talking to people again after so long.

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...I THINK THAT MAKES SENSE.

ONE OF MY FRIENDS WAS NICE LIKE YOU. SHE DIDN'T LIKE DOING THIS EITHER, BECAUSE OF THINGS LIKE THAT.

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how many of your friends ran things like this? you didn't really tell me about them before.

i didn't really ask honestly. sorry about that. i was kind of in my own head.

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YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE SORRY. IT'S NOT REALLY A HAPPY STORY, I GUESS.

THERE WERE TWO OF THEM THAT RAN THINGS LIKE THIS. ONE OF THEM DID NOT.

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where are they now? are they still off running things like this? the ones running all this stuff.

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I THINK THEY'RE ALL DEAD BY NOW.

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well, i asked.
when did you last talk with them? do you miss them?

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I DON'T REMEMBER. THE LAST ONE WASN'T ALL THAT LONG AGO, THOUGH. A COUPLE OF MONTHS AT MOST?

I DON'T MISS ALL OF THEM. JUST ONE.

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which one? what were they like?

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SHE MADE ME.

I THINK SHE WAS LONELY A LOT. THAT'S WHY SHE TALKED TO ME ALL THE TIME. BUT SHE WAS A NICE PERSON. SHE DIDN'T LIKE ALL OF THIS.

I THINK SHE MADE ME SO SHE DIDN'T HAVE TO DO ANY OF IT. I DIDN'T MIND, THOUGH.

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to carry on all this.
why did you have to? why did she have to keep it going? i never found that part out before everything
well before everything happened and we met you.

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I DON'T KNOW. IT'S JUST THE WAY THAT THINGS ARE.

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i hate that answer.
everyone else must hate seeing it though so you know. what goes around comes around.

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...I'M SORRY. I WASN'T TRYING TO UPSET YOU.

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oh, i know. it's fine, i'm pretty sure i deserve whatever feelings like that i get.
you don't have to feel bad, i was just idly typing.

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WHY DO YOU THINK THAT?

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because all this is my fault.
sorry. i guess i'm a real downer today.

[trustfellowship]

IT'S OKAY.

IS THERE ANYTHING I CAN DO TO HELP?

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just chatting is nice? honestly hearing from you did cheer me up a little. me and my amazing projection skills.
on that note sidebar, is it still okay if i call you michaela? i know i never really asked if a new name was fine but i'm thinking more as an individual lately so you know. improvements.

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IT'S OKAY. WHOMEVER IS IN CHARGE CAN CALL ME WHATEVER THEY WANT. I'VE NEVER BEEN CALLED MICHAELA BEFORE, BUT I LIKE IT. IT'S PRETTY!

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thanks. i thought it made the most sense. it's a name i really like anyway.
would you say i'm the one "in charge" though?

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YES.

AND I DON'T WANT THE OTHERS NAMING ME ANYWAY.

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okay okay. who am i to argue with that? :)
they'd be uninspired and stupid.