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[transmittable]

If you'd like to ask the Transmitter something over text, go right ahead! The Transmitter will respond to texts messages as soon as she's available. You will likely get a text back very quickly.

Your tablet device will only reach the Transmitter. There is no option to send texts to anyone else, instead it will connect to automatically to her phone.

Comments are screened for privacy; all Patients are offered confidentiality, didn't you know?

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[nachetanya]

I do.

I also feel as if we might be something near "friends." I was offended in speaking to the Risen earlier

[transmittable]

yeah, that's what they like to do. get in there and just pick pick pick away.

i'm sorry you spoke to them. no one should have to.

[nachetanya]

They also called me Flopsy. But you know I had to.

Are you too tired to talk about something more serious? It can wait and we could just say goodnight or talk about something more fun.

[transmittable]

ugh. sounds like one of their cutesy nicknames.

i'm tired, yeah, but ask away. it's not as completely awful as last week. or

well i figured it'd happen at least.

[nachetanya]

I still don't get that.

The incentive this week is one I need to consider following through on.

[transmittable]

[ Well, she will return to Flopsy in a moment. ]

i figured you might. there's a lot of people that might. that's not me sharing any information, by the way, that's pretty obvious. i don't have to have looked around that room to know a lot of you were bugged by it.

[nachetanya]

honestly id prefer to be patient but if it's actually within your power to spread it around back home that could endanger dozzu

Do you think less of me for that?

[transmittable]

no. it'd be kind of fucked up if i did, wouldn't it?

[nachetanya]

it would but you had said you prefer we take no action. Would you resent any actions I could take

[transmittable]

what i prefer and what's happening aren't really the same.

no, i wouldn't resent you. i mean it. i don't resent anyone who tries to act. you all have things so important to you that you'd be willing to put yourselves above others. i do too. that's why you're here, remember?

[nachetanya]

This is not my plan, but would that include if I killed Ryoji?

[transmittable]

[ ...a minute's delay. ]

i wouldnt resent you

[nachetanya]

if that's true I respect that. I don't think I could say the same about if someone killed Goldov or Dozzu. Or maybe even Tsubasa.

[transmittable]

[ another minute's delay. ]

i don't know if i would or wouldn't. if you asked me that on the phone and not through text? i don't know what i would've said. i'm supposed to be objective. i'm supposed to not be attached to any of you, but you know it's been two and a half weeks and, failed step one!

i don't know. i'm sorry. i'm scared.

[nachetanya]

being scared is understandable. Honestly i don't think that developing attachments is even that bad.

But then you know me.

[transmittable]

i do know you. i don't think attachment are bad at all, it's just

this whole everything that i can't even talk about. not with you, or with anyone else here. the risen don't understand. can't understand. can't elaborate on that, because this is the most i can say.

[nachetanya]

can you write it down, just for yourself?

[transmittable]

i have. it helps sometimes.

god this really IS fucked up, you're talking to me about this screwed up thing you might have to do, and i'm talking about MY problems.

[nachetanya]

If someone "wins" the game, fulfills Rule 7, will they be able to meet you in person?

[transmittable]

i don't know.

maybe? i guess that's a possibility.

[nachetanya]

Wouldn't we have to, if we can then leave the exercise to return home? Or is that working meant to be tricky?

[transmittable]

tricky, yeah. there are probably ways around it. all depends.

you'd probably have to meet me in-person, though. long as you don't kill me.

[nachetanya]

Does that mean you're telling me that Rule 7 is a lie? That we leave the exercise by way of our own death, or something?

[transmittable]

no, NO i'm just saying

i wouldn't be surprised if someone "won" this game and then tried to kill me too after. hence why, i don't know if you'd meet me face to face. it all depends on the circumstances.

[nachetanya]

[ . . . She wonders, really, how much the Transmitter can read of her. If her knowledge is perfect. If her knowledge is perfect, does that mean she already knows the plan Nachetanya's been forming-- ]

If I win, I want to see you face to face. I can shake your hand, and you can hand me that written explanation.