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[transmittable]

If you'd like to ask the Transmitter something over the phone, go right ahead! The Transmitter will answer the phone as soon as she's available. Leaving messages is impossible, given how old these phones are, but you should be able to reach her at almost all hours.

Comments are screened for privacy; all Patients are offered confidentiality, didn't you know?

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[nachetanya]

No, you're correct. I didn't know more about Felicia, so I can't say anything about her goals or hopes. But she was kind and was killed for it.

[transmittable]

I'm noticing... A lot about a person has to do with their goals for you, doesn't it? What you think of them, how you interact.

[nachetanya]

I believe that what goals, dreams, ambitions that someone holds in their heart can tell you more about someone than nearly anything else.

[transmittable]

More than the interactions you have with them? More than the actions they take to achieve those dreams?

[nachetanya]

I did say almost. [ she shakes her head and: ] To use me as an example, I know that the actions I've taken will besmirch my name, either to my "allies" or to the world at large. But everything I've done has been done in the name of my ambition, to bring peace to the world. It's that which explains me the most.

[ ... ] Obviously, you should be aware of people's actions, and change how you respond to them accordingly. But if you know what goals people have and cannot let go of, it becomes easier to predict them.

[transmittable]

Ahhh, I get it now. You do like to know how to maneuver in all, uh- all situations, right? It's important to you, not to judge them, but to figure out how best to...react around them.

[nachetanya]

Yes.

[ ... she laughs a little at this though, shaking her head ]

Do you think that makes me sound sinister?

[transmittable]

In one perspective. Thinking so much about people like that's- well, it's no Sunday in the park, but some kinds of lives could lead to it...probably.

You sound like someone who likes to be in control, honestly.

[nachetanya]

[ She... giggles at that, actually. ]

You sound like you're dancing around insulting me, Misty! You're free to, you know!

[transmittable]

[ She sighs, but there's a light air to it. ]

Alright, alright, so I don't find that the best way to look at people, is that what you wanted to hear?

[nachetanya]

[ she nods and there's a clear smile in her voice as she responds: ]

Yes, because now I can say for sure I understand you a little bit better.

[transmittable]

And that's what all of this is about, right? I won't tell you my goals, so you have to find other ways to read me. That's why you asked who I found sympathetic, and why you ask about the things I like.

Am I hot? Cold? A little warm?

[nachetanya]

Warm, at least.

[ She laughs a little, shaking her head ]

If you're always watching, you have to know that I've both been keeping notes on our conversations and that I've shared little of what we've discussed together, since you asked me not to. Certainly very little of the specifics. I can't claim I have the most altruistic reasons, but then you have Ryoji for that...

But I want to understand you.

[transmittable]

Good to know. Reassuring to know, actually. I don't think I really have to ask why, I mean- it doesn't take a rocket scientist? You're within every right.

But while I can't have you understand me or my goals, I can still enjoy talking with you.

[nachetanya]

Are you comfortable with me?

[ She's been stopping and starting a lot less lately. ]

[transmittable]

Mmmm, not in so many words. Not comfortable like...uh, others- but comfortable enough to carry on a conversation. It's 'cause I know more of what to expect.

Asking me to think hard on you, it helped.

[nachetanya]

[ There's a long pause here. Thinking hard on her... helped.

... She hesitates longer than usual before: ]

... Knowing all that, do you find any part of me admirable?

[ Though her tone is as neutral as ever, it's - well, it's naked in that she would ask it at all that she's hoping for validation. Maybe she really is tired. ]

[transmittable]

[ ... ]

You're devoted to something that will, thought difficult, save many people, in the long run.

I think that's admirable.

[nachetanya]

[ . . . She's touched by that, more than even she wants to admit. She - ]

Thank you.

[transmittable]

You asked. ...But you're welcome.

[nachetanya]

[ She exhales. This mixture is probably good enough now. She... She laughs, and centers herself again ]

Would it be nosy if I asked if you made up with Ryoji? You can be nosy to me in return.

[transmittable]

It would be VERY nosy, in fact, but we did. ...Thanks for talking to him. Even though there was nothing I could do in return, you still- so. You know. Thanks.

[nachetanya]

I said you can be nosy right back!

[ She laughs though, shaking her head ]

I'm glad, though. I would still like something in return, but it was fun to talk more with him. I might see if he wants to host some game this week.

[transmittable]

That sounds like something he'd be good at. Have a game night, make everyone play that...whatever you were making.

[ So she knows a little about that... ]

In terms of being a nosy little...rabbit I guess, how's it going with you and Assimilated?

[nachetanya]

[ She wonders how much the Transmitter can read her intentions with Tsubasa. She smiles a little to herself, nodding to confirm that yes, she thinks the game night sounds nice. ]

Honestly, I was thinking that I would ask her if I could stay the night with her tonight. If I'm asking you to comfort me with validation, that's all the more reason to, probably.