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[transmittable]

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[nachetanya]

Ooooh, you won't tell me.

Of course though. I've devoted my life to that ambition that I share with Dozzu. It doesn't matter if I die, or whatever damage I do to my reputation. It's something that I refuse to give up, even for one moment.

I consider Goldov my friend, perhaps even more important than that. But because we aren't comrades, there at many things I can't tell him.

[transmittable]

because it's nothing you need to worry about.

that makes sense. i come from a different perspective i suppose. my goal is a different kind of ambition. it's more personal, so i don't think i could really have "comrades" in the sense that you do.

[nachetanya]

That's alright. I think that sort of goal is beautiful as well - in fact, the ambition I've admired the most here is Nozomi's.

[transmittable]

really? why is that?

[nachetanya]

It's an ambition that she can clearly state, clearly believe in, and has taken all possible steps to achieve. It shows on her body.

[transmittable]

so it's the amount of dedication she has to it, then.

[nachetanya]

As well as her certainty in it.

[transmittable]

so it doesn't matter what a person's ambition is, as long as they're certain and dedicated, and it's something where they aren't living in the past.

do i understand your qualifications right?

[nachetanya]

Precisely! Ambitions speak to who someone is, are forward facing, and help people grow. Something they can build up who they are as a person to achieve.

Of course, a grander goal is more impressive...

But Nozomi's clear in what she wants, and aims with all her heart to achieve it. I think that's admirable.

[transmittable]

if someone waffles on their goal, what do you think about that?

[nachetanya]

I think that they should work out if that goal was important to them in the first place. And if it is, they should reaffirm their position.

[transmittable]

alright. i figured you would say that.

why do you think you're so focused on a person's ambition as an indicator of who they are? do you have an answer?

[nachetanya]

Because that's the truth of the matter. An ambition, a goal like that is something they can't forget.

[transmittable]

but more important to knowing them than how they act with others? their loved ones? their personality?

i don't mean to pick at your philosophy. it's just something this conversation's made me think about.

[nachetanya]

That goal that they have in their heart influences all of those. It's who they truly are. How someone acts can change depending on the situation and the needs of the moment or the company.

Actually, Tsubasa, as she usually is, is a good indicator of the problem in looking at actions.

As for their loved ones, their personality... People chose their loved ones to some extent, and their personality is something else which is often inherent, if you can even know it. But personality is something that's still subject to that feeling in their heart.

I don't think someone can truly know who they are until they feel something so strongly they can't let it go.

[transmittable]

wouldn't you say people's feelings about things also make them who they are? tsubasa's also a bit of a special case. possessed demon cat and all.

[nachetanya]

Feelings can cloud them from their sincere selves, sometimes.

Goldov - from my memories - can't say for sure who he is because his everything is so devoted to me.

[transmittable]

maybe who he is can be called "protective" or "dedicated."

[nachetanya]

He's definitely dedicated. But even if that's the case, he said that he wanted to serve me when he was ten. He's never done anything else but that since...

Ideally, I want him to find out what he wants and needs for himself, without his heart wavering based on my whims.

[transmittable]

that's fair. to find who he is separate from you, that is important.

but i think those feelings are important to who he is too. just in a different way.

[nachetanya]

I don't deny that. Simply, I believe it's not the most important thing about him - or at least it shouldn't be.

...

I think I might love Tsubasa, or at least I could. It's a silly thing, as compared to my intentions.

[transmittable]

i wouldn't call your feelings silly. i wouldn't call anyone's feelings like that silly.

[nachetanya]

I didn't mean to talk about this with you, I'm sorry.

[transmittable]

it's fine. you need to talk about things too don't you?

and that's what i'm here for. i can't encourage or discourage you one way or another, but i can listen. or read i guess. today's a rough day, but it's a rough day for everyone.

[nachetanya]

[ . . . ]

I won't deny that I'm excited to do my part in the play at the trial.